Becoming Beth: a love story


Aside from being baptized, changing my name is one of the most biblical things I’ve ever done, following in the footsteps of Sarah (formerly Sarai), Abraham (formerly Avram), Paul (formerly Saul), and others. I’m weird, though – most people today don’t do that, and the people who lived in biblical times never had to deal with the hassle that is Social Security and the DMV.

Becoming Sarahbeth (from Sarah Elizabeth) was important to me. And I still am Sarahbeth, legally. But that’s the name I put down on job applications, doctor’s forms, and of course, book covers. Like the name I was born with, I sort of grew out of that one too. Well, that’s not entirely true – I did get tired of the “It’s Sarahbeth one word with an ‘h’ no space no hyphen lowercase ‘b’” dance when giving my name over the phone, and forget putting it on a Starbucks cup; it was always reduced to “Sarah” and then five other women would step forward and I’d never know if it was my drink order being called or not.

But I wanted to make it work. I’ve never met another Sarahbeth in person before (though I’ve stalked a few via Facebook) and I felt some degree of pride in having made it up. It’s my name, dammit! I would fight for it! And fight I did…until I met Joshua.

Actually that’s not the whole truth. We technically met in 2008, at Campus Crusade for Christ, but were both dating other people, so we never looked at each other “like that.” We were in the background of each other’s lives, casually saying “Hey” at bible study, but nothing deeper than that. By the time we ran into each other again in 2011, we were both single, though his breakup was somewhat anticipated. Mine came out of the blue and gutted me like a blunt knife soaked in saltwater.

Obviously, I was not in a very good place. So when he said, “Sarahbeth is too long, can I just call you Sarah?” my response was, “Hell no, you may not.” So he then said, “Okay…how about Beth?” My response was “That’s fine,” even though I had no intentions of going by that at the time. We just ran into each other after about two years of silence; I wasn’t going to see him again (so I thought), so it really didn’t matter what he called me.

Lake-Forest-Wedding-46Well, I was flat wrong – two weeks after that day, we started dating. Two and a half years later, he proposed, and nearly two weeks ago, we got married. After some debate, I decided to keep Sarahbeth, but with my last name being Stoneburner now, that is…um…a little long. And yes, I am aware I now have two names made up of two names. I am SB squared, with the initials SS (my Jewish family just loves that). Let the jokes begin.

On the outside, it may seem like I chose to embrace Beth because my boyfriend did. I hate those books where the main character completely reinvents herself for a boy, and I hate to think I followed in that same pattern, but I don’t think that’s the case. With Josh, the changes that took place in my life were necessary – I entered our relationship still hating myself and wanting to be made new. He gave me the chance to do that by helping me see why I might be worth dating, and eventually marrying. It wasn’t because of him that I reinvented myself, again, as a stronger, healthier woman, but with him. And I could have done that without him, but I’m glad I didn’t. He’s a perpetually optimistic person who deeply cares about others, and I need people like that in my life.View More:

For what it’s worth, I’ve grown into a Beth now, if that makes sense. It’s a name that conjures up a picture of a dark-haired, bookish sort of girl with glasses (gee, sound familiar?). It’s a name that’s sorta common, but not too common, and has an aura of mystery around it: is it short for Elizabeth? Bethany? And most everyone can spell it. That makes my life a heck of a lot easier. Last but not least, Little Women, anyone?

This is not the conventional path of most people, I know. It makes me odd and maybe confusing, and I certainly don’t recommend changing your name more than once if you can help it. I hesitated to even take Josh’s last name because of the ridiculous paper trail that will be following me for the rest of my life. But this is part of a love story, after all, so concluding it as Beth Stoneburner just feels like the natural thing to do.



11 thoughts on “Becoming Beth: a love story

  1. Sam the dude says:


    Sarah is also a well cool name 🙂

    But as for names, I understand. My Jewish name is Shumel or Samuel, most people call me Sam(hence my nifty change of nom de plume). When my grandparents fled to Britain they went against all tradition and named their children after what they considered to be “Christian”names e.g. David, Hannah, Solomon , Esther ,Ruth, so they’d fit in as Arabic speaking Jews from Iraq in England circa 1948(where it was perfectly legal to to say no beggars,blacks, Irish or Jews). Although our mum (who was born in Baghdad) when she met my Anglo Irish dad, restored the tradition, by naming her sons and daughters after living relatives… which is why I’m called Samuel, or Shumuel or Sam!


    • Beth Caplin says:

      I never liked Sarah. Forget that it was one of the “It” names of the 1980s, I never even felt like a Sarah. Can’t explain exactly what that means, but if you’re like me, you’ve probably met people who really seemed suited for their names, and others who made you think “That doesn’t seem to fit her at all.” It’s such an injustice how biology works, that as babies we don’t have the mental capacity to name ourselves :-p Of course when I was younger I wanted to be called Princess Ariel…


  2. Bonni says:

    I love this and I really, really resonate with it. I feel like I’ve been anticipating a name change of my own for years, the more I grow into this ‘new’ me. Kudos on the courage to more fully embody yourself, however that self is named. And congratulations on your wedding!


  3. Sharon says:

    Hi, Beth. My daughter is a friend of Adrienne’s. You’ve probably seen my name pop up on Adrienne’s posts. My daughter Sarah got married a year ago. I can tell you that Social Security doesn’t care what name you use (they’d probably let you use Sarah Cap-Stone!), but the DMV is a whole other matter! They will not accept anything except your given first name and your maiden or married last name. In between you can have your given middle name, but NOT your maiden name! And you WILL buy plane tickets under your driver’s license name for eternity. The only other option is to go to court for a legal name change. My daughter’s experience was horrific!


    • Beth Caplin says:

      Hi Sharon,
      I actually don’t have a middle name anymore, but now I’m becoming convinced that a name like Sarahbeth Stoneburner doesn’t really need one. I’d hardly ever use it, but I did put Caplin as a middle name on Facebook for people who would have no clue who Beth Stoneburner is. I looked into the court option, but it’s expensive and time-consuming; again, doesn’t seem worth it just for a middle name. What went wrong with your daughter’s name change? Or do I not want to know???

      Is your daughter the same Sarah who had dark purple bridesmaid dresses? You may have recognized a certain dress in my wedding photos Adrienne is tagged in 🙂


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