Theology

What is our highest calling?

I had an epiphany around 4am this morning. Having returned the day before from a two-week trip around Europe, my internal clock is still disrupted and I wasn’t tired at all. I lay awake, tossing and turning, gripped with fear that I might never get pregnant again. Or may never be able to carry a… Continue reading What is our highest calling?

Miscellaneous, Social Issues

Validating early motherhood

Josh and I were divided about when to tell our friends and family about the baby. He wanted to wait until the socially accepted 12-week mark, when the likelihood of miscarriage is reduced. I struggle with anxiety, so I more than understood that precaution. When to tell is a personal decision each family must decide… Continue reading Validating early motherhood

Theology

What Mary offers grieving mothers

For most of my Christian life, Holy Week and Good Friday have been emotionally difficult. It’s a season that brings up old memories of being called a “Christ killer” by the mother of a childhood friend. Hearing Gospel passages of the Jewish people demanding Christ’s death has always made me extremely uncomfortable. That’s still the… Continue reading What Mary offers grieving mothers

Miscellaneous, Theology

Grief is the currency of love

There are a few clubs I’ve been forced to join against my will: The fatherless daughters club. The sexual assault survivors club. And now, the miscarriage club. *** When my depression and trauma were at their worst, I actually felt angry with my parents for trying so hard to have me. I’m the fourth child… Continue reading Grief is the currency of love